When they say it takes a village, they are lying. It takes the world. Grief isn’t anything I wish upon anyone. The amount I have grown through this grief process is something I never imagined. Though I wouldn’t have been able to push through this grief everyday and get up out of bed, go to work, keep in contact with people and live each day if I didn’t have all the support from my people.
It was hard at first no one was the right person, my mom was the only person I wanted. I would scream, cry and sob for her. But over time I have started to accept that others are beneficial. Now that I’m opening up and accepting that it makes this grief process bearable. I was in denial and don’t get me wrong some days I still am, but thank god for my support system. I have everyone reminding me of the good that is still in life. On the bad days writing down the good things, thinking of the memories really help deal with all the sadness.
Positive things in life:
I have a nephew on the way!!!! I’m going to be an aunt!
I have students who are expecting Miss. Swartz to show up and teach them every day.
I have my brother, sister-in-law, cousins, friends.
I have the cutest, most hilarious grandparents.
I have a great boyfriend.
I have roof over my head.
I have the family I nanny for.
I have a therapist.
I go to yoga, gym and my bed. (Bed may win more than yoga and gym sometimes ;)but its all about balance right?! )
I have the most amazing and supportive coworkers.
I have dreams.
I am a teacher.
I am a young adult.
I am confident.
I am goofy.
I am sarcastic.
I am realistic.
I am imaginable.
The list goes on. I have a lot and I am a lot. These are just a few things that help me get back to Bailey. Back to being the confident young adult I am. The woman who is excited to live and see what life has to offer. I was told the other day “try living more in the moment, rather than the past or the future”. And boy oh boy did that hit me like a brick. Yes, the past has shaped me, and to have goals and dreams for the future is great, but I need to live now. I’m not going to get these days back. The more I live in the present the better quality of life I will have. So moral of getting back to Bailey is I had to accepted others help instead of push it away, I am grateful for what I still have and proud of who I am. Cheers, cheers to my world, positivity & happiness.
Fly High My Angel Fly High
Domestic Violence Fact #4: On average, nearly 20 people per minute are physically abused by an intimate partner in the United States. During one year, this equates to more than 10 million women and men.
Fun Fact #3: The chills you get when listening to music are caused by your brain releasing dopamine, a neurotransmitter that causes pleasure.